For my dear friend Becky and all my other sisters who are waiting. I love you all and want to encourage you today.
“How long Lord?”
This is a question that I am very familiar with, I must have asked it a million times in my life. Waiting is such a difficult and painful process. It sounds like a passive act, but the act of waiting demands so much energy and heart and passion and so many tears.
Waiting can awaken your imagination in a way that feels more like you are a character in “Alice In Wonderland” than any Disney fairytale. When your mind starts to write it’s own stories and your heart goes along for the ride the anxiety produced can be crippling, can’t it?
So often the story of our life is not what we expected, anticipated or wanted. I don’t think that all of life is horrible and hard…but I do think that when life is good we don’t notice as much as when it isn’t. I’m so much quicker to complain about a rainy, cold, windy day than I am to be thankful for a day filled with sunshine.
So what should we do when life is hard and the waiting feels like it might never stop? When our mind and our heart turn against us and we feel like we are prisoners in our own bodies?
I turn to the Bible. I can find no other source of encouragement and straight forward truth than in the Bible. My friends, my family, TV, books…there is no other place to turn for Truth when you desperately need to hear it.
Psalm 73:26 says, “My flesh and my heart may fail but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”
Psalm 26:2 “Test me, O Lord, and try me. Examine my heart and my mind.”
When I allow God to examine my heart and mind, he doesn’t condemn me but rather listens to me. He listens and listens and listens. I can breathe Him in and breathe Him out. I can scream and cry if I need to. Or simply sit there silently with tears falling down my checks and know that He understands.
Psalm 34:18 “The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
I don’t think we can ever answer the question, “How long?” We simply don’t know what the future holds. We don’t. What we can know is that we are being held. I truly believe that. God holds us. God cares for us. God knows us.
Sometimes, we just have to:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.”
This kind of trust doesn’t solve our problem…but it can help give us perspective.
Even if the waiting continues.