Seeking God Day 21

haldenI’m tired. It’s not just because I stayed up late again to watch the Cubs win. It’s not simply because I woke in a cold sweat last night at 3:30am from a nightmare. It’s not even because there is more laundry again and the dishes are dirty again and the bathrooms need to be cleaned again. It’s a soul- deep tired. The kind that weighs on my shoulders and makes me long for easier times.

Do you know this kind of weariness?

I find myself praying, “Father, give me rest.” Yet, I’m unsure what the rest I’m asking for looks like. I’d love to go on vacation and escape from my everyday life here for awhile but that doesn’t seem to scratch the itch that is making my soul so irritable.

So I close my eyes and breathe, Feeling my diaphragm expand and fall. Silently pleading for God…

…to come

…to fill me

…to answer me

..to be with me.

I’m not afraid. I’m not alone. I don’t feel forsaken or oppressed.

I’m just tired.

Matthew 11:28-30

 

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

I just recently heard someone describe what a yoke was. I’ve always known it was the collar that oxen wore when they plowed a field, at least that what my Sunday school teacher told me. Truth be told, I grew up in the suburbs of Chicago and I’ve never plowed a field with oxen. Actually, I’ve never plowed a field.

The inside of a yoke has many hard barbs or spokes, sort of like the metal dog collars some people use on big dogs. If the animal pulls it’s head to far to one side or the other, the yoke makes the animal uncomfortable so it will learn to keep it’s head straight. This allows the farmer to keep the animal walking in a straight line. When two oxen are yoked together, then they both need to work in harmony, synchronizing their steps and keeping their bodies aligned. If one animal pulls to hard to one side or the other it will be uncomfortable and their progress will be stunted or even halted.

Jesus says that his yoke is easy. I wonder what he meant by that? I’m sure that there is a lot more to what he said than what I understand.

Today, I’m wondering if I’m tired because I’ve been plowing alone. I want to be the second ox, I want to be connected to Jesus and walk with him. I know my yoke isn’t easy but he promises that his is.

He knows the path.

I’m tired of being poked and prodded by these dang spokes in my yoke. They hurt!

I need rest.

An easy yoke and a light burden sounds like rest to me.

Jesus promises rest for my soul if I will only learn from him.

Lord, I’m listening.

Lord, I Need You by Matt Maher

 

 

 

 

4 comments

  • I understand your weariness, Christine. But at the same time, I want to say how much I enjoy reading your daily thoughts. They have been life-giving to me, and I look forward to a new one each day. Each one has been fresh and new, and you are able to express deeps thoughts so well. You’re such a good writer! I’m praying for you.

  • Christine

    Thank you Lynn. You are my constant encourager.

  • Brenda Garver

    Deep things bubble up out of you when you write…

    • Christine

      Brenda how are your characters coming along? Did they break out of the drawer yet? I would love to know how your project is coming along.

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